slowly day by day...one more stop in my journey of life is passing by....from gokhale nagars flat to atharvs house....it has been a not so happening yet quite wholesome experience.
my first affair with the indias fast developing"metro" culture....a brief experience of the flat system....very entertaining experience of goan friendship....and a lot more

it started of from koregaon park...where i was not so sure why i was here....things were hazy and i was in a heist...tried to come in terms with the change in place and made my self absorb the feeling that college is over,tried to sort out what i want to be.....and how far i am willing to go for it.....this did help me to take a few chances...and only time will tell how right i was.....

1st transition came when we moved from green meadows of kp to local version of "city of god" aka gokhale nagar.....well not all that bad....but kp is jus kp.....
started trying to prepare for CAT only to end up changing my mind and to go for something else....something more imp and beautiful.....CFA....

this city pune...puna...whatever you wish to call.... does show you a very direct glimpse of the new age india..or you may say...software india....lots of ppl..plenty of opportunities.....with a pinch of maratha bashing....but still ok...the last line helps you to be deep rooted in the indian culture.

naturally blessed by beautiful locales it has been very well co ordinated by its administration to bloom up in a new world hub....power road police...everything is ok...if not bad.

this stay also provided me with an opportunity to meet people with a very different mindset......the first one from the lot is a lad called Mr bhosekar....i had a hearty laugh when i first heard his name...very genuine and direct at heart... complacent...kind of content and always up 4 a stick or sum alcohol....den i had a chance to run in into ashwin and dhawal....dhawal exemplifies that looks are deceptive....nice guy to hang around..though a bit jittery that what next for him....

talking bout metros will be incomplete without some chic-king.....awesome crowd here...fc college...symbiosis....bmc....god dese places are insane babe factories...weekend walks along fc road can be seriously injurious to your health :) or i should rather admit...at least they were injurious to me :P
as far as girls are concerned...got some tit bit interaction chances here and there...and among them .... it was very special to meet sanaya ana puja....very beautiful..slightly plastic....though...they made very clear to me...freckles and accent are tempting......den i had dis girl from my frnds coll...like... nothing so special...but when sheis there around she could make everything special......

finally my roomies.....or as i saw them...3muskitiers....closely bonded by the bond of coll or school friendship...1st tym on their own to take on the world and life....they did had their share of brickbrats and fun....from vishis bday to rayesh departure..things were dynamic...finally to leave me with vipul....intelligent ambitious guy who wants to buy some expensive car... i forgot the name...has a nice girlfriend at his home place.....their daily soap left me with only 1 expression...ohh god i dont have a gf.....only to be followed by :) or at times with :(......2 months of me vipul and dhanno...it was great....finally..it came to an end and we parted...i have my refuge at atharvs place....till i leave .....

beside all this golu was falling.....ajit was getting into college politics...atharv had a gay relationship with old monk....kallu dumped us for big A....nogs always got his eyes stuck on deepikas ass...and singhal was as usual single.....munni was getting badnam...and sheela became jawan....and kauaa papi went for money accumulation


finally it feels that its gonna end

for me pune is all about these 4 5 people whom i had a chance to run into.....this place is as beautiful and welcoming as sanaya is....as happy and smiling as shounak is.....as busy as ashwin is...and a friend as dhawal is..........some awesome memories by vipul...puja...munmun...ajit...shou..."B from mahaB"....rayesh....dhawal...ashwin.....do make this jobless lonely experience a worthy one.....

MY LOG PART 3

WELL I CAME TO NITC AS A STUDENT BUT AFTER THESE ALL YEARS I DOUBT THAT WHETHER WE EVER CAME IN TERMS WITH EACH OTHER.RIGHT FROM MY ADMISSION TO MY SHARE OF STATE ORDER..EVERYTHUNG JUST SEEMED COMING A BIT TOO FAST AND SLIGHTLY UNCALLED FOR,COUPLED WITH MY OWN LAZY ATTITUDE I MADE SURE THAT I FOUND MYSELF IN DEEP TROUBLE BY THE SEMESTER RESULT :)
AFTER SCORING NEARLY SINGLE DIGIT PERCENTAGE OF MARKS IN MY S,MY WHOLE BTECH BECAME MORE OF AVOIDING THE INEVITABLE...BUT STILL I HAD TO TRY AND I TRIED TO JUST ESCAPE THE RAZORS EDGE...LIVING ON THE EDGE AND BEING ABLE TO TAKE UP EXTREME PRESSURE ARE AMONG FEW ATTRIBUTES WHICH I CAN CREDIT NITC OF PUSHING INTO ME.
IT WAS NOT ALL DAT BAD .....IT WAS A PLACE OF MANY 1STs FOR ME....LIKE MY FIRST ACADEMIC FAILURE....GETTING INVOLVED WITH A GIRL FOR THE FIRST TIME....FORCED TO TOLERATE PEOPLE AGAINST OWN WILL.....BUNKED EXAMS FOR SLEEPING....RESORTED TO CHEATING ...COPYING....ALCOHOL.....AND HELL LOT OF OTHER MYRIAD STUFF
IN SOME SENSES ON PERSONAL LEVEL IT WAS A VERY SPECIAL PRIVILEGE TO BE AT NITC SPECIALLY IN OUR ADMISSION SYSTEM AS IT WAS A CHANCE TO SEE FEEL AND EXPERIENCE INDIA IN A SMALL CAMPUS....IF YOU EVEN HAVE ANY REMOTE DESIRE TO GET INTO THINGS DEEP YOU WILL FIND PEOPLE WHO ARE WILLING TO SHARE HELP AND ADVICE....
SECOND SEMESTER WAS A SILENT WAIT ....TO REVERT SOMETHING WHICH WAS VERY MUCH CERTAIN TO HAPPEN....FINALLY I STOOD UP BUT ONLY TO FALL FOR A GIRL....
SUMMER OF 07 WAS SO PINK AND FEMININE THAT THERE HARDLY I CAN REMEMBER EXCEPT THAT BLISS OF ROMANCE...FROM COLLEGE TO CITY OR CITY TO KAPAD BEACH ..IT WAS ALL SO GLOOMY
FOR THE 1ST TIME I GOT A CHANCE TO FEEL A FEMALES EXISTENCE CLOSELY INTEGRATED WITH ME..AND BOY...DAT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL COMPLETE...TIME FLEW....BROUGHT NEW FACES CLOSER ONLY TO DISTANT SOME OLDER ONES.......
HAD MY SHARE OF TEENAGE CRAP TOO.....BUT SOME HOW EDGED OUT OF IT....JUST TO FIND MY SELF THAT SEASON OF ROMANCE CONTINUES IN S3 IT WAS THE ONLY PERIOD IN MY 8 SEMESTER COURSE THAT ACTUALLY WAS SMOOTH.....MAN STUDIES WERE AT EASE...AND YOU HAD A PERSONALITY BESIDE U WHO RECOGNIZED UR EXISTENCE ALTHOUGH SHE WAS NOT FROM YOUR BLOODLINE.....ADRENALINE RUSH WAS SO HIGH...THAT WENT FOR A RIDE ON MOTORBIKE WHEN I DIN EVEN KNOW HOW TO SHIFT GEARS....IT WAS INSANE AND ECSTATIC....BUT WORTH IT.....
SO HERE WAS S4 WITH ALL KIND OVERLOAD PAPERS AND LABS....BUT AS I SAID "PAAP KIYA TO DARNA KYA" I WAS THERE TO DIG IN IT STRAIGHT..IT WAS TIRING ,NO DOUBT BUT IT WAS SOMETHING IMPORTANT AND NEEDED TO BE DONE BUT MAY BE MY PERSONAL EFFICIENCY OR THE OVERLOAD OR MY BOYHOOD....SOMETHING JUST TOOK MORE AND MORE TIME FROM ME AND HENCE FROM MY BETTER HALF.....OR RATHER MAY BE THE HONEYMOON WAS OVER..OR WAT SO EVER ... I MEAN THINGS WERE NOT THE SAME ......SHE WAS GENUINE NORMAL GOOD AND BEAUTIFUL AS ALWAYS ....DID HER PART PRETTY WELL NO DOUBT.......IT WASNT THAT I WAS WRONG BUT IT IS SO HABITUAL FOR ME TO END UP ON THE WRONG SIDE.....SOMEWHERE IN S4 OTHERS AND OTHER THINGS CAME CLOSER AND SHE DID DRIFT A BIT APART......FINALLY SOMETHING GOOD CAME OUT OF S4 AND I DIDNT HAD TO MAKE MYSELF SUFFER FOR ANOTHER SUMMER TERM
APART FROM THAT......WE HAD MEASALES VACATION AND SWEET AND SALTY COCHIN TRIP.....LIFE IS ALWAYS FUN...IT GIVES YOU UR SHARE ....EVEN IF U DONT DESERVE OR WANT IT
S5 WAS TIRING AS I WAS STUCK ONCE AGAIN WID MY 1ST YEAR ROMANCE.....MINI DRAFTER....U WONT BELIVE BUT IN MY WHOLE PROGRAMM I WAS MADE TO DO NEARLY 70 SHEETS :P
THINGS WERE A BIT DIFF WITH NEW E HOSTEL SINGLE ROOM...WHICH FURTHER GAVE ME AN EXCUSE TO BE LAZY AS IT WAS THE FARTHEST HOSTEL......DERE WAS DIS SUDDEN ZEAL IN JUNTA FOR CAT AND GATE STUFF......ME ON SOME INSISTENCE FROM FEW FRIENDS AND FELLAS ENDED UP JOINING A COACHING CLASS...GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH EFFECTIVE OR USE TO ME.....
MOST SIGNIFICANT HAPPENING OF S5 CAME BY ITS END.....
MY HEROINE WAS ALWAYS SPECIAL TO ME IRRESPECTIVE OF MY LAZINESS OR IMMATURITY ....MAY BE I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN A BIT DIFFERENTLY BY JUST BEING MORE UNDERSTANDING AND GIVING HER, HER SHARE OF WAT SO EVER SHE WANTED ....OR MAY IT WAS DAT ....SOMETHING SIMPLY FADED AWAY.......
AND SO I WAS BACK ON THE ROAD AGAIN TO TREAD MY OWN PATH....TO SEE ONCE AGAIN WHERE I WAS HEADED TO......ONCE AGAIN AS ALWAYS TO CARVE OUT EVERYTHING OUT ABSOLUTE NOTHING.......
YEAH S6 WAS A PAIN .....IT ALMOST WENT THROUGH ME.......BELIEVE ME ...BREAKUPS ARE UGLY...REALLY UGLY....AND IF DE R NOT UGLY .....DEN ITS NOT A BREAK UP......
EMOTIONAL DEPENDENCE IS HARD TO REPLACE.....THE PROBLEM IS THAT EVEN IF YOU GET A REPLACEMENT THE EARLIER VOID WILL BE THERE.....AS IT WAS FOR SOME1 ELSE....NO ONE ELSE SHOULD BE GIVEN THAT
LOADS OF SULKING CRYING WEEPING AND SOME SERIOUS SHIT FROM MY BRANCH HOD MADE S6 A BIT TOO SPICY FOR ME.....AND THE LAST SHOT WAS ME GETTING A BACK IN A SUBJECT AND A LAB.....AFTER A LONG TIME.....STILL IT WAS OK...NOTHING NEW FOR ME....
BUT SOMETHING NEW WAS DEVELOPING FOR ME....A LACKLUSTER PERFORMANCE COUPLED WITH A DISTRACTED PRESENCE IN THE CLASS DID MAKE ME A FAVORITE DIG FOR FEW TEACHERS...AND DE DID HAD DERE SHARE OF FUN.....
S7 WAS OK ...ONLY TILL I WAS INFORMED I LOST MY ELDER BROTHER.....I WAS SO DRAINED BY THAT TIME THAT IT TOOK ME SOME TIME TO REALIZE IT WITHIN AND DAT REALIZATION DID HURT....BUT MORE THAN THAT IT GAVE ME FEW THREADS TO GET OUT OF THAT CAMPUS.... ANEW DESIRE TO SEARCH FOR A NEW DESTINY......I DONT KNOW WATS IT IS REALLY BUT TEACHERS AT OUR DEPT WERE CLASSY EXAMPLES OF RUSTY EGOMANIACS...FRANTICALLY TRYING TO FOLLOW SOME NAME SAKE ORDER.....WITH A PINCH OF FAVORITISM......FINALLY IT ALL BOILED DOWN TO S8.......AND HENCE THE SEASON OF JOB TREATS AND SEA QUEEN GET TOGETHERS WERE INTENSIFIED..... IT WAS NICE TO SEE FRIENDS AND FOLKS ACHIEVING WHAT THEY WANTED....PATIENTLY GIVING MYSELF TIME TO REALIZE WHAT WAS UP THERE FOR ME

FINALLY IT GOT OVER AND AS A GOOD BYE SOU VERNIER I GOT A BACK IN A SUBJECT FROM SOME CRACKHEAD PROF AND HENCE MY ARRANGED MARRIAGE WITH NITC STRETCHED FOR FEW MORE WEEKS....ENDLESS DAYS OF PORN AND LONELINESS SOON GAVE ME MY WAY OUT OF MY MEMORY GALORE TO BE FREE ONCE AGAIN ON MY OWN....THE TIME WAS NEALY THE SAME .....6 PAST 30 IN MORNING......WEN I LEFT THOSE RED WALLS WITH A PROMISE THAT I WILL GIVE ITS DESERVING LAAL SALAAM SOME DAY........



LIFE AT NITC WAS GOOD WITH PPL LIKE AJIT ATHARV AMIT KALYANKAR NOGIA GOLU PURAN DJ ABBU AHIJIT MANI RAJAT TIWARI MUNMUN......RUCHIRA AND ROHIT....DE ALL DID GIVE DERE PIECE OF TIME TO SHAPE MY FOUR YEARS......

figure it out

what ever wrong i have ever done in my life ,virtually proved to be stroke of destiny to shape me up into what i am today.unlike my previous blogs which carried a sense of US this one is for I.life up til now has been a very bful experience,not even a single moment which could actually bring down the indomitable spirit of life in me.
people places friends foes crushes affairs love betrayal death rejection all are nothing but the same if u see it through my perspective.they all are nothing but tools to shape you in what u opted to become.its not that i try to destine everything but u c ,if u not then the whole concept of destiny falls as a farce.
i believe in destiny bcos if u see around u,we see ppl whom we barely knew the last spring and now we r so much into them that we wont ever get enough.but yet again the contradiction comes that if everything is destined then why to put in effort for a result,then i will say its ur effort which brings ur destiny in a smooth timely deserved manner ,if its not there then any one of them or all of them can alter.destiny has another master piece effect that it enables u to see ur experiences with a diff view every time,so that u can ultimately settle down on a view which destiny has destined for u.majority part of our quantized life is spent to get to a selection,but the master architect has his own plans,u can only jus delay or make it fast.
My objective opinion about destiny comes from my share of this world both at personal level and public.
For starters it can be said any student X lives a frame which was destined for him by his destiny,cos we do kno ppl who after all effort dont end up getting wat they deserved on the controrary we have a healthy no of happy go lucky s too.it may be so that X may become a rock star later on but for this part of destiny this suffocation was destined on his part.
I again believe in equal distribution that is we all have a fair share in both white and black.we all have moments emotions ........report cards of both white and black,i m not trying being philosophical or anything but jus hav a look around u will realize all wat i say.
again whats important the content or the expression,it appears to be made by some pseudo intellectual, but i wana draw the larger picture,a picture where everything no matter painted by who,is simply judged for its content,no polishing,unnecessary glitz to cover up for something.
I do believe that everyone should be extrovertly selective when going for a company,as for my case i was both luck any very lucky to have few but still impact full ppl to shape me and my personality,from my 11 years of schooling i find myself stuck in a blank when i see ppl chanting bout their school frnds etc,similar was the case for +2,and as of now for coll ,hmmmmm ya dere r ppl worth that position and i do give dem dat and will definitely continue to do so until i exist,but may be its me or the modern human nature ,its like as if we are living in a state of trance,if i u smile i can do the same but if ur not there then there is a blank.some girl said to some boy "if ur out of my sight ur out of my brain"pretty bold and direct but its the reality and if it is so, which it is actually then why to lace companionship with tasty sauce of emotions,the answer is obvious and correct that is to get that extra and special taste.but the question comes again that is why?????why to fool ourselves why dont simply say that ya m dere 4 u until the moment u don show me ur back,may be this is our indian culture or spiritual background we tend to take everything beyond physical limits,whether it be love sex or even for that matter dhokha,we tend to pull things,on the other hand reality is what that girl said.i don kno bout how classical definition of frndship nd love came but for todays time its a pipe dream i guess,may be due to such a short life span or this hectic pace or this soul fucking rat race or those moronic expectations,it has taken out some part of us which was very genuine and dear and important for us but still its ok ,we can survive ,may be ones again for the last time.

lost it......................

mood is so tempting tingling and sour
how can it change on its own every hour

time passes by so fast in a hurry
leaving every memory hazy and blurry

ummm this is good,i like this to have
spending my day thinkig wat all i have

complacency is bad they said
pushing us beyond every limit they made

yeah i am happy and want to live this way
why should i hear everything u say

here and there the difference has been lost somewhere
now i stand happy for nothing in middle of nowhere

my happiness mine,sweet eternal and divine
its like the sun which has to rise and shine

try harder and bring it on
give it ur ultimate try u moron

i hav stood on my own
never think i m alone

i stand tall
forcing u to crush and crawl

fuckoff u creep before i go insane
and the bomb stops ticking and explodes in my brain................

In the sun

its going down and deep,
its tym to wake up but i wana sleep

will i wake up before its too late
or accept everything as it was my fate

should i try to change things
or lets see what life has to bring

will it change even if i try to change
has it actually gone out of my range

why i have to feel bad although i m not sad
may be this feeling will pass away like a fad

what i want to do is still nowhere
even a sight of it has become so rare

is it my fall or a temporary crawl
will i ever get over this internal brawl

will it be brightness outside
or still there darkness more to seep inside

yes its gonna be my sun and my sunshine
atlas it will be my cup and my wine