WELL I CAME TO NITC AS A STUDENT BUT AFTER THESE ALL YEARS I DOUBT THAT WHETHER WE EVER CAME IN TERMS WITH EACH OTHER.RIGHT FROM MY ADMISSION TO MY SHARE OF STATE ORDER..EVERYTHUNG JUST SEEMED COMING A BIT TOO FAST AND SLIGHTLY UNCALLED FOR,COUPLED WITH MY OWN LAZY ATTITUDE I MADE SURE THAT I FOUND MYSELF IN DEEP TROUBLE BY THE SEMESTER RESULT :)
AFTER SCORING NEARLY SINGLE DIGIT PERCENTAGE OF MARKS IN MY S,MY WHOLE BTECH BECAME MORE OF AVOIDING THE INEVITABLE...BUT STILL I HAD TO TRY AND I TRIED TO JUST ESCAPE THE RAZORS EDGE...LIVING ON THE EDGE AND BEING ABLE TO TAKE UP EXTREME PRESSURE ARE AMONG FEW ATTRIBUTES WHICH I CAN CREDIT NITC OF PUSHING INTO ME.
IT WAS NOT ALL DAT BAD .....IT WAS A PLACE OF MANY 1STs FOR ME....LIKE MY FIRST ACADEMIC FAILURE....GETTING INVOLVED WITH A GIRL FOR THE FIRST TIME....FORCED TO TOLERATE PEOPLE AGAINST OWN WILL.....BUNKED EXAMS FOR SLEEPING....RESORTED TO CHEATING ...COPYING....ALCOHOL.....AND HELL LOT OF OTHER MYRIAD STUFF
IN SOME SENSES ON PERSONAL LEVEL IT WAS A VERY SPECIAL PRIVILEGE TO BE AT NITC SPECIALLY IN OUR ADMISSION SYSTEM AS IT WAS A CHANCE TO SEE FEEL AND EXPERIENCE INDIA IN A SMALL CAMPUS....IF YOU EVEN HAVE ANY REMOTE DESIRE TO GET INTO THINGS DEEP YOU WILL FIND PEOPLE WHO ARE WILLING TO SHARE HELP AND ADVICE....
SECOND SEMESTER WAS A SILENT WAIT ....TO REVERT SOMETHING WHICH WAS VERY MUCH CERTAIN TO HAPPEN....FINALLY I STOOD UP BUT ONLY TO FALL FOR A GIRL....
SUMMER OF 07 WAS SO PINK AND FEMININE THAT THERE HARDLY I CAN REMEMBER EXCEPT THAT BLISS OF ROMANCE...FROM COLLEGE TO CITY OR CITY TO KAPAD BEACH ..IT WAS ALL SO GLOOMY
FOR THE 1ST TIME I GOT A CHANCE TO FEEL A FEMALES EXISTENCE CLOSELY INTEGRATED WITH ME..AND BOY...DAT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL COMPLETE...TIME FLEW....BROUGHT NEW FACES CLOSER ONLY TO DISTANT SOME OLDER ONES.......
HAD MY SHARE OF TEENAGE CRAP TOO.....BUT SOME HOW EDGED OUT OF IT....JUST TO FIND MY SELF THAT SEASON OF ROMANCE CONTINUES IN S3 IT WAS THE ONLY PERIOD IN MY 8 SEMESTER COURSE THAT ACTUALLY WAS SMOOTH.....MAN STUDIES WERE AT EASE...AND YOU HAD A PERSONALITY BESIDE U WHO RECOGNIZED UR EXISTENCE ALTHOUGH SHE WAS NOT FROM YOUR BLOODLINE.....ADRENALINE RUSH WAS SO HIGH...THAT WENT FOR A RIDE ON MOTORBIKE WHEN I DIN EVEN KNOW HOW TO SHIFT GEARS....IT WAS INSANE AND ECSTATIC....BUT WORTH IT.....
SO HERE WAS S4 WITH ALL KIND OVERLOAD PAPERS AND LABS....BUT AS I SAID "PAAP KIYA TO DARNA KYA" I WAS THERE TO DIG IN IT STRAIGHT..IT WAS TIRING ,NO DOUBT BUT IT WAS SOMETHING IMPORTANT AND NEEDED TO BE DONE BUT MAY BE MY PERSONAL EFFICIENCY OR THE OVERLOAD OR MY BOYHOOD....SOMETHING JUST TOOK MORE AND MORE TIME FROM ME AND HENCE FROM MY BETTER HALF.....OR RATHER MAY BE THE HONEYMOON WAS OVER..OR WAT SO EVER ... I MEAN THINGS WERE NOT THE SAME ......SHE WAS GENUINE NORMAL GOOD AND BEAUTIFUL AS ALWAYS ....DID HER PART PRETTY WELL NO DOUBT.......IT WASNT THAT I WAS WRONG BUT IT IS SO HABITUAL FOR ME TO END UP ON THE WRONG SIDE.....SOMEWHERE IN S4 OTHERS AND OTHER THINGS CAME CLOSER AND SHE DID DRIFT A BIT APART......FINALLY SOMETHING GOOD CAME OUT OF S4 AND I DIDNT HAD TO MAKE MYSELF SUFFER FOR ANOTHER SUMMER TERM
APART FROM THAT......WE HAD MEASALES VACATION AND SWEET AND SALTY COCHIN TRIP.....LIFE IS ALWAYS FUN...IT GIVES YOU UR SHARE ....EVEN IF U DONT DESERVE OR WANT IT
S5 WAS TIRING AS I WAS STUCK ONCE AGAIN WID MY 1ST YEAR ROMANCE.....MINI DRAFTER....U WONT BELIVE BUT IN MY WHOLE PROGRAMM I WAS MADE TO DO NEARLY 70 SHEETS :P
THINGS WERE A BIT DIFF WITH NEW E HOSTEL SINGLE ROOM...WHICH FURTHER GAVE ME AN EXCUSE TO BE LAZY AS IT WAS THE FARTHEST HOSTEL......DERE WAS DIS SUDDEN ZEAL IN JUNTA FOR CAT AND GATE STUFF......ME ON SOME INSISTENCE FROM FEW FRIENDS AND FELLAS ENDED UP JOINING A COACHING CLASS...GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH EFFECTIVE OR USE TO ME.....
MOST SIGNIFICANT HAPPENING OF S5 CAME BY ITS END.....
MY HEROINE WAS ALWAYS SPECIAL TO ME IRRESPECTIVE OF MY LAZINESS OR IMMATURITY ....MAY BE I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN A BIT DIFFERENTLY BY JUST BEING MORE UNDERSTANDING AND GIVING HER, HER SHARE OF WAT SO EVER SHE WANTED ....OR MAY IT WAS DAT ....SOMETHING SIMPLY FADED AWAY.......
AND SO I WAS BACK ON THE ROAD AGAIN TO TREAD MY OWN PATH....TO SEE ONCE AGAIN WHERE I WAS HEADED TO......ONCE AGAIN AS ALWAYS TO CARVE OUT EVERYTHING OUT ABSOLUTE NOTHING.......
YEAH S6 WAS A PAIN .....IT ALMOST WENT THROUGH ME.......BELIEVE ME ...BREAKUPS ARE UGLY...REALLY UGLY....AND IF DE R NOT UGLY .....DEN ITS NOT A BREAK UP......
EMOTIONAL DEPENDENCE IS HARD TO REPLACE.....THE PROBLEM IS THAT EVEN IF YOU GET A REPLACEMENT THE EARLIER VOID WILL BE THERE.....AS IT WAS FOR SOME1 ELSE....NO ONE ELSE SHOULD BE GIVEN THAT
LOADS OF SULKING CRYING WEEPING AND SOME SERIOUS SHIT FROM MY BRANCH HOD MADE S6 A BIT TOO SPICY FOR ME.....AND THE LAST SHOT WAS ME GETTING A BACK IN A SUBJECT AND A LAB.....AFTER A LONG TIME.....STILL IT WAS OK...NOTHING NEW FOR ME....
BUT SOMETHING NEW WAS DEVELOPING FOR ME....A LACKLUSTER PERFORMANCE COUPLED WITH A DISTRACTED PRESENCE IN THE CLASS DID MAKE ME A FAVORITE DIG FOR FEW TEACHERS...AND DE DID HAD DERE SHARE OF FUN.....
S7 WAS OK ...ONLY TILL I WAS INFORMED I LOST MY ELDER BROTHER.....I WAS SO DRAINED BY THAT TIME THAT IT TOOK ME SOME TIME TO REALIZE IT WITHIN AND DAT REALIZATION DID HURT....BUT MORE THAN THAT IT GAVE ME FEW THREADS TO GET OUT OF THAT CAMPUS.... ANEW DESIRE TO SEARCH FOR A NEW DESTINY......I DONT KNOW WATS IT IS REALLY BUT TEACHERS AT OUR DEPT WERE CLASSY EXAMPLES OF RUSTY EGOMANIACS...FRANTICALLY TRYING TO FOLLOW SOME NAME SAKE ORDER.....WITH A PINCH OF FAVORITISM......FINALLY IT ALL BOILED DOWN TO S8.......AND HENCE THE SEASON OF JOB TREATS AND SEA QUEEN GET TOGETHERS WERE INTENSIFIED..... IT WAS NICE TO SEE FRIENDS AND FOLKS ACHIEVING WHAT THEY WANTED....PATIENTLY GIVING MYSELF TIME TO REALIZE WHAT WAS UP THERE FOR ME
FINALLY IT GOT OVER AND AS A GOOD BYE SOU VERNIER I GOT A BACK IN A SUBJECT FROM SOME CRACKHEAD PROF AND HENCE MY ARRANGED MARRIAGE WITH NITC STRETCHED FOR FEW MORE WEEKS....ENDLESS DAYS OF PORN AND LONELINESS SOON GAVE ME MY WAY OUT OF MY MEMORY GALORE TO BE FREE ONCE AGAIN ON MY OWN....THE TIME WAS NEALY THE SAME .....6 PAST 30 IN MORNING......WEN I LEFT THOSE RED WALLS WITH A PROMISE THAT I WILL GIVE ITS DESERVING LAAL SALAAM SOME DAY........
LIFE AT NITC WAS GOOD WITH PPL LIKE AJIT ATHARV AMIT KALYANKAR NOGIA GOLU PURAN DJ ABBU AHIJIT MANI RAJAT TIWARI MUNMUN......RUCHIRA AND ROHIT....DE ALL DID GIVE DERE PIECE OF TIME TO SHAPE MY FOUR YEARS......
